Tuesday, January 19, 2010
I WANT A TUMMY TUCK & LYPOSUCTION PRONTO!!!
I WANT MY BODY BACK!!!!
Ok, so this is my 5th week on the Insanity program and I'll admit it, I've skipped a few days here and there each week of the work out but despite all that, I've only lost 22 of my 42 pounds of pregnancy weight!! UGH!!
Wait... Umm. Looking back at that number, I feel kinda silly or spoiled for complaining but here's why.
For the first 25 yrs of my life I've pretty much been a stick figure.
The pic above shows me in high school when I could eat whatever I wanted whenever I wanted and I would'nt gain a pound over 118. (I'm 5 '8' so for me that's stick figurish...)
Fast forward to yrs later in college when I gained my freshman 15 and even though I wasn't completely ok with everywhere the pounds spread to, I accepted it because I at least gained a booty which I loved. ;)
Then I started having kids. After having my 1st son, I not only dropped all my weight but I went 5 pounds below my starting weight at pregnancy. Same thing happened when I had my 2nd son. Now after baby # 3 it seems like the pounds have found a nice home on me and are refusing to get off.
This was a pic taken of me when my 2nd son was just over a yr old.
This was taken in 2005. I SOOOO MISS THIS BODY!!
This was a pic taken this past thanksgiving. I'm not so happy with this shot.
The main problem is that I CAN"T FIT MY JEANS!! I try them on weekly and even though they go up a little further each week, I still can't fit in them and I refuse to buy new ones. So I'm forced to wear the same clothes I wore during pregnancy which luckily for me aren't maternity clothes, just sun dresses or shorts and skirts that fit me loose enough to not show my new "cakes" (tried to find a term of endearment for the pounds, :( ).
I'm tired of these clothes. I want to wear my jeans again. I'm trying to get used to the idea that I'm going to have to put in some serious effort into losing weight this time around but it's soooo hard.
I'm trying my best to eat healthy and I'm now forced to count calories. It's all so new and foreign to me. I'm not used to watching my weight and I HATE EXERCISING!!
I must give myself credit for actually sticking with the Insanity program because it truly is insane but I guarantee that if I'd shed all my weight by now, I would'nt be on this program as often as I've been.
I should stop complaining because at least I'm starting to get healthier but I really, really, really miss eating ANYTHING and EVERYTHING I want to eat. :(
Just typing about food is making me hungry.
I think I'll have a cup of tea and call it a night.
Uh oh. I hear munchkin # 3, that's my cue...